For a spiritual person, I have a pretty short fuse. It's true. For years, I subscribed to the fallacy that as a teacher I was obliged to always radiate beatific holy--what? Seriously? What was I thinking? Even today. As I do lesson 11 from A Course in Miracles, I found myself highly irritated and agitated over payment negotiations with some guy who I'm sure means well, but doesn't communicate well in English (hence his need for Native Speaking Writers), yet, I find myself constantly looking for how I can seek to get him if he tries to cheat me. I fully expect him to cheat me. And if he does, I'll take great satisfaction in turning him in. What I wonder is what is more important to me? For the work I'm doing, I'm being paid well under my worth. And that makes me angry. It also irritates me that I feel like I've had to threaten him about my payment every step of the way. So when I am perfectly honest, I don't at all know if I'd rather receive $7.50 for 10 articles or just get nothing and feel vindicated getting him in trouble. Right now, I don't know. It's an interesting feeling. Sure, the $7.50 comes in handy. It would pay for the $5, I'm being charged to work for the nut. So, the real question is, do I desperately need $2.50 enough? No. The real question is do I want to advance or do I crave revenge? Okay. I  got paid. Yet, that means just $20.50 to go. I can do this in under three days. That's not terrible. I've worked for less. As a Karma yogi, I've worked for free. My inner compassion voice kicked in when I got especially angry at him. He's in Kenya. He studied sometime science like. Sure, I don't understand why he pawns off the work of American writers as his own, but broke though I may be, I'm not in Kenya. I have options. They may not be the options I want, but I have them. This being awake stuff is a hoot!